The thoughts are incomprehensible
Seeing you all together, smiling happily through the pain
You walk by me, looking through me, not seeing me
I try to be happy, I try to move on from this pain
The tears well up in my eyes despite my attempts to shake them away
I know its best not to think of the happier times
I try to ignore it, try to keep a painted smile on my face
These thoughts, these memories, these times keep reminding me
Reminding me of how things used to be, how things should be
The past is there in front of me, shaking me from my sleep
The past haunts me in my dreams, taking the forms of demons in my sleep
I can never turn away from these things, these forms that keep me locked
This turmoil is constantly in my face, throwing it against me
There is no ending, not when you are breathing my air, sucking it from me
It is smothering me, choking me, holding me down, not letting me move
Is there an escape from this?